these boys have changed my life :) cam. connor. nick.
this is liz :) she is amazing, and i would be lost without her.
sometimes you wait around for something so long, that you form all these expectations for what it should be. you talk it up to something great, and sometimes when you expect too much you end up dissapointed in the end. and yet other times, your expectations are exceeded and you are surprised. sometimes things turn out better than you could have ever imagined. i knew my spring break was going to be good. but i didn't know it was going to be absolutely amazing. i didn't know it was going to go down as one of the best weeks i have ever had in my life. i didn't know how much it was going to affect me.
nick came to rapid from arizona, the first time we've seen him in almost a year. in high school all of us were very close - especially when it came to cross country and track, but now its hard to see each other. so cam and i made sure that we got to see nick this break. from the time he arrived saturday night it was clear that the week was going to be filled with random adventures, great times, and barely any sleep. why sleep when you can spend your time having fun with the people you care about? you can sleep when you're dead! ha. just to give you an idea, the first night we all stayed up till 6:30 in the morning talking (after going on a hike at 1:30). got up at 9:30. got together later and stayed up late once again. the whole week was filled with a reunion of friends. dinners together. hikes after midnight. and simply enjoying each other's company and having conversation after conversation.
this week made me want to quit school. i would love to live in a house with 10 of my closest friends and simply enjoy each other's company on a daily basis... cam and i joked about it tonight. just quit school. convince the people we want to join us to do it to. no hesitation. hike around the country. live in fellowship with other people. experience random adventures. surround yourself with the people who make you who you are. you are able to put a smile on your face no matter what's going on in your life. what's holding you back? life, reality, obligation. sure - but wouldn't it be great to just be able to say screw it. lets just live life. i wish. because i had so much fun this week. and honestly, the times when i'm happiest are the times when i can surround myself with the people i care about. and that's what life should be shouldn't it? spending time with those you love. i wish it happened more.
i am so happy. (more than a little sad that i had to go back to school, i cried a good couple hours the last few days about it but). this week just made me appreciate the people who are in my life so much. and just be able to see how people can come together, even after a year or two and still click in the same way. how things can fall into place, and it's like no time has passed at all. and suddenly you remember what was good about your past, suddenly you remember the things you miss about high school, about being "young" again. as far as a team, we had a great thing - and those are memories that can never be replaced. that experience changed my life, and this week made me realize that those bonds can be formed again - or at least put into place for occasions such as these. it took me back. it made things simple again. it made me simply enjoy life for all it has to offer. one o'clock in the morning and someone suggests a hike - why not? one life to live. live in the moment. do things you don't normally do.
aww. i wish i could describe this whole week to you. i'm just amazed at how wonderful it was. i want to relive it, over and over again. and more than that, i never want to let my friends go. there are some people who are just worth holding on to. and that's what friendships are - just like any commitment or activity. they are choices. everyday you can choose the amount of effort you are going to put towards it. everyday you get to decide how much you care. i care so much. and i am going to fight for my friends. i refuse to let them go over something stupid, i refuse to let us lose touch. i refuse to allow things to change when the choice is in my hands. in our hands. we get to choose what friendships survive, just like we get to choose the other things we put ourselves into. nothing comes without effort, nothing comes without some work. things might not always be easy - but if you keep fighting, you will be glad you did. i'm going to fight for my friends - because they are the people who know me. they are the ones who allow me to be myself. they are the ones who allow me to live. without them - i would be lost.
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