Do you not know?! Have you not heard!?
The LORD is the everlasting GOD, the CREATOR of the ends of the earth. HE will not grow tired or weary, and HIS understanding no one can fathom. HE gives strength to the weary, and increases the power of the weak. Even youths grow tired and weary, the young men stumble and fall; but those who hope in the LORD will renew their strength...

I've got news people, news that I often have a hard time remembering to focus on, which is really a shame because news as exciting as this - well it should never be forgotten, never be put on the back burner, never be stored away until we REALLY need it. We always need it, we always should have our attention upon, but often times we wait until life is so hard that we can't take it anymore, and then we cry out, then we remember.

God is not our drug. He is not available only when the pain is so great we can't handle it anymore. He is definitely there in those times, but we should be looking to Him during every moment - when we're happy, when we're sad, when we're depressed, and angry, and when we are so overwhelmed that we don't even know what to do. God should be the focal point of our lives - we NEED Him. We NEED Him to be the center. We NEED Him to be in control. We NEED to give Him that control.

The past month, perhaps a little more, I have been so depressed that I have barely gone out of my apartment other than to attend class, perhaps get some groceries, you know stuff like that. The only times I have been remotely happy is when I left Mankato - I went home at the end of September, I flew to Fort Collins, CO in the middle of October, and I recently returned from being home again. Coming back, I realized that the only way I am going to make it through this year - the only way I am giong to survive living here, is to hold on to the positive aspects of my life - to grasp hold of the thigns I have been blessed with, to hold on to JESUS.

I have lost sight of Him lately, I have let Him go because I thought it didn't matter. Everything was falling apart, I haven't even been able to give my friends the time of day, so why would I give Jesus any of my time?? WHY? Because He can give me strength. He can pick me up. He can restore my wounded soul, my heart that seems to be constantly breaking. He can give me hope, to keep trucking along, and searching out the One who will always be there - no matter what the circumstances.

Yep, I got news. God is still here for me, He always has been. And no problem is too great if we just entrust in Him to take care of it, to lead us where He wants us to be. :)

[Isaiah 40: 28-31]