she will be loved

every morning is a new day. and almost every morning she barely can get out of bed. whether its due to a lack of sleep, or simply having no motivation... she dreads leaving her bed. crawling out from under the covers and losing her comfort, her safety. she pulls herself together and somehow she arrives at school. the hallways are always the same. every day there is a huge distance between her and her locker. she takes a deep breath and ventures down. sometimes she walks tall and confidently... ready to smile. ready to start the day. other days, she barely makes it. not wanting to walk past the same group of kids that are always there in fear that they will notice... they'll see she's not okay. she has to be okay. she has to be strong. for herself and for everyone around her. usually she succeeds. if she doesn't, she blames it on the lack of sleep. or makes up some excuse that is mostly believable. school is not the place to break down. and so she never does. she's a normal girl you would say. with normal friends. normal classes. normal every day problems. but she's unique too. she thinks a lot. and contemplates all of her feelings. sometimes she focuses on all the bad things... and then she does something few understand. she writes about. in some form or another, in some place or another... she lets it all out. its her outlet. some people let it out on a punching bag. others on their friends. she punches the paper with words, channeling the hurt into something that is meaningful. yes she is normal. but she's not as strong as she wants to believe. in fact she's rather delicate and her guard falls easily if hit by the right (or the wrong) thing. don't judge her because she cries more than some. at times she's going to break down. it happens. ask her the last time she's cried? chances are it hasn't been very long. and chances are someone has witnessed it. if she trusts you... she'll let you in (to an extent). all you have to do is love her... show her that you care.

for after all: thats all anyone really wants, to be loved. to have a support system of people that you can lean on no matter what happens. no matter what mistakes you make. no matter what you're going through. love is more than just a word. its the way you act towards people. its the way you make them realize... they mean something to you. they're important. without them... things would just not be the same. everyone needs to have that feeling. everyone needs that. we can't do it all alone... we can try. but you're going to fail miserably. you have to lean on God. there is no other way to make it. and after that, you need friends to help you along the way. yes, to feel loved... to be loved. is a feeling/comfort that can never be replaced.


i am so incredibly thankful for all the people God has placed into my life... at times when i feel completely lost are the times it seems like someone is there. it makes me feel so priveleged that that feeling alone makes me cry at times. i'm not sure i deserve such great friends. and yet... there they are. for what reasons i don't know. but i am so glad i have them. i honestly, truthfully, with all of my heart... do not know what i would do without them. God is good. and its amazing to see His love through the people He has placed around you. i feel truly blessed...