unanswered questions

there comes a time in a person's life when all of sudden there is this huge thing called a future looming in front of you... containing all these questions that are forcing you to come up with answers. no matter how valid they are. i have reached that point in my life and i'm telling you its not as liberating as it appears it would be. i am absolutely and positively scared to death. i'm sure that for some people this is not the case... in fact i know its not. because there are people who have known what they wanted to do with their lives since like second grade and the whole hard part for them has been waiting this long to get there. me on the other hand... i have no frickin clue. i have no idea where i want to go to college and absolutely no clue what i want to be "when i grow up." i put that in quotations because it is simply that... a quote. personally i feel like i've had to grow up a lot lately. especially this year. i won't go into the details as to why i feel this way... but i have become a lot more independent and responsible for all the things that go on in my life. no longer do i rely on other people... because i've learned that there are many times you are going to be let down, and on the other side of that not always is someone going to be around to help you through it. growing up has a lot to do with accepting your choices, learning on your own, and moving on. so yes, i feel grown up in a lot of ways... however i am still being labled as one of those kids who has an "undecided future." let me tell you. if i knew what i wanted to do with the rest of my life, i'd be working towards that goal with extreme dedication. problem is i don't. and its so incredibly frustrating that i have a hard time handling it. and on top of my own stress over the issue, theres the pressure of my parents for me to "decide" and "figure it out." along with that are my friends who have all their plans made... and here i sit. the girl who can't decide. honestly i don't think its entirely a bad thing. i just wish i didn't feel like i had to make this quick decision just because its the next step in life. what if i make the wrong one?? the future is scary. i'm ready to move on, i just wish i knew... where to???